You don't really want to change. Neither do I.
I can keep coasting along through life, and be just fine. But, something happened today...this overwhelming feeling to dig deeper. I don't want to go deeper because it forces me to be vulnerable. And when I'm vulnerable, God asks me to do things I don't want to do. Reading God's Word produces change. And when there is change, God will ask me to do things that make me uncomfortable. I'm serious. It always happens this way. This is exactly why I believe in Jesus Christ. This is why I believe in everything the Word of God has to offer. When I dig into the Bible, I am not the same person. It's not just like I become a better person and start doing "good" things. It changes who I am, how I see others, how I see the world, how I love, how I react, how I interact, how I talk, how I think.
You cannot dive into the Word without getting soaked. It changes the parts of you that you don't even know exist. You can go on living and get along fine, but Monday still comes every week, and Friday is the only thing that gets you through. Keep the routine. Keep rotating in this cycle. You'll be fine. You won't be changed. You won't see a different day until the day you see Jesus. Jesus changes every day. And dangit, sometimes you don't want him to. Stop changing me. Stop exploiting the worst parts of me. But, this only happens through Christ Jesus. True change. You have to embrace it. God is love and love is everything. If we have areas where there is not love, God will make it known. And love is not a free pass to do whatever you want. Love knows no wrong. This love is different than the love you've seen and heard.
So, ask me why so many Christians don't love the unloved. Yeah, that's a problem. That's not love. Ask me what I think about the sinners who drink too much, swear a lot and have sex whenever they want. Ask me what I think about homosexuality. Ask me what I think about smoking. Ask me about the worst sins you can think of. Try to shock me. If you've heard a message that says one of these is worse than the other, if you've heard an outcry against one of these sins over another, it's not the message of Christ.
This is the message of Christ: I have sin in my life, I want to remove it, and there's only one way to do it. When you notice something different in me, I'll tell you my story, point you to the Word of God and watch it change you. Trust me, it will.
